Weather wise, this week has been hot, sultry and stormy. One minute the skies are brilliant blue and the sun is beating down and then, quite suddenly, the humidity rises, the clouds bubble up and turn as dark as night and before you know it we are in the midst of another rather dramatic thunderstorm. Oddly enough my mood has also had these traits this week.
I have a tendency to hold my tongue and not make a fuss if something is bothering me and often I don’t even notice the rising tension in myself until I am fit to burst. This week the dam broke…twice.
I’m a pretty selfless person and while that is ok most of the time I can’t stand being taken for granted, overlooked or regarded as completely unimportant. This seems to be happening with increasing regularity of late, resulting in two big old meltdowns.
I need to learn to express myself, bottling things up is such an unhealthy thing to do and the resulting meltdown, while being a release, leaves me feeling awful usually with red puffy eyes and a thumping headache to boot. I’m an intelligent girl and I know these things but putting it into practice is another matter entirely.
Here’s hoping for a less stormy week to come.